This morning I had coffee with my friend, Annie. She asked, "What is God teaching you?" Man, I just get so much life from conversations and friends like this. 

Squad leading is capital H-A-R-D. 

But it's also so incredibly good.

Friends, things can be hard and good at the same time. It doesn't have to be one or the other. 

I'm learning how to juggle a lot and am brought to the end of myself daily. But, I'm learning where my strength ends and God's begins is the best place to be. 

And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 KJV

A few days ago I was lying on the floor, filled with exhaustion, I was thinking about juggling. I started with a few balls and it felt like a challenge. But then a few more were added. Then someone threw in a watermelon. And then a bike. As I pictured myself struggling to juggle, everything fell to the ground. As I laid there feeling like I had failed, everything was lifted above me...

I looked up and there were people playing catch with the balls, someone was riding the bike, and a few others were cutting and eating the watermelon. Through this vision, it felt like God was reminding me that He has me, but I have to stop carrying the weight on my own. 

So, back to Annie's question.

My answer: "Peace."

God is teaching me that peace is not dependent on my circumstances. If everything around me is in chaos, I can still have peace with Him. 

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Galatians 5:22-23 NET

The fruit of the spirit is not circumstantial. 

Now those who belong to Christ have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. If we live by the Spirit, let us also behave in accordance with the Spirit. Galatians 5:24-25

There are still moment when I try to pick up that bike and watermelon, but God is really kind and reminds me not to carry that weight.

Peace is a daily choice. Most of the time, many times a day. 

It's actually pretty simple. Do you want it?